ALL THAT I CAN SAY

So. I'm writing this blog tonight because i know nobody reads my blog, and i need an outlet. I tend to have problems saying how i feel sometimes. I know this is something I need to work on. Sometimes I just feel like im better off not saying anything at all. Clearly that's not always the best option, but that's the method i choose most often. Im i different kind of girl, by this i mean i think differently. The things that piss most girls off don't bother me, but the things that do bother me really bother me. That might be a problem, its like all or nothing with me. With that said, one of the few things that bothers me is when im ignored. I know that people get mad and don't wanna talk, but it really makes me feel like crap when they ignore me especially when i feel really bad about it, and made an attempt to discuss it. i hate the thick clouds of tension. I just feel like theres nothing i can say or do, and i hate that feeling more than anything. This causes me to go into fall back mode. By this i mean i literally fall back. I feel like if you you don't want to talk to me then i just won't talk. Now, i know that this isnt the best method, but at the time it always seems best. Im pretty sure this is one of those things i REALLY need to work on.

Now on another note. Shiny is the best. Like i don't know what else to say. I know he gets mad, and most of the time he has every right to, but at the end of the day he always finds a way to make everything between us alright. This mans patience is outta this world. He's really always there for me, and even though we're apart im never worried. I know im putting him through it right now, i know i am, but its not intentional. I just hope he knows that. im sooo happy with our relationship its almost un real to me.ok im done for now i feel like one of those sprung chicks.