HUH. LIKE IM NOT ONE FOR SHARING BUT I GUESS I'LL TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT TONIGHT. TODAY I REALIZED SOMETHING THATS GOING TO STICK WITH ME FOR A MINUTE OR SO. ERYKAH BADU HAS A SONG AND IN IT SHE SAYS SHE TOOK A MINUTE TO RE-EVALUTE ALL OF THE THINGS SHE THINKS ARE SPECIAL. SO I TOOK THE TIME TO DO SO. I REALIZED THAT NOT MANY PEOPLE FIT IN THAT CATEGORY. STAY WITH ME NOW THIS WOULD BE THE IMPORTANT GROUP. SO LIKE EVERYNIGHT I OPENED ITUNES AND PUSHED MY FAVORITE PLAYLIST AT THE MOMENT, THIS BEING BLUEPRINT BY NONE OTHER THAN JAY-Z, AND I LISTENED. I DIDNT SPEAK, I DIDNT NOD, I JUST LISTENED. SO OFTEN WE OVERLOOK SUBSTANCE, AND LOOK TO CONVIENCE. SO I LET IT PLAY, AS I LISTENED. NOW I LOVE THE WHOLE ALBULM BUT, NATURALLY I HAVE FAVORITES. ONE BEIN SONG CRY. NOW BY NOW YOUR PROBABLY ASKING YOURSELF WHAT THIS HAS TO DO WITH ANYTHING. BUT YOU MUST REMEMBER THAT I LIVE MY LIFE THROUGH MY MUSIC. SO TONIGHT THROUGH THIS SONG I GUESS IM CHOOSING TO CRACK A SEALED SAFE.
ICANT SEE EM COMIN DOWN MY EYES SO I GOTTA LET THIS SONG CRY.
THESE WORDS ARE INDICATIVE OF MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS LIFE, SO TO SPEAK. IM SICKA THEN YA AVERAGE, COINED BY BIGGIE, BUT CONFIRMED BY YOURS TRULY. IM NOT ONE TO LET PEOPLE COMPLETELY INTO MY WORLD. IN OTHER WORDS I TEND TO BUILD BARRIERS, SOMETIMES THEY CAN BE SMALL LIKE SCREENS AND OTHER TIMES THEY CAN RESEMBLE BRICK WALLS. HENCE MY REASON FOR LOVING THE SONG HALO. NEWAY, IVE MADE MYSELF INTO A PERSON WHO REFUSES TO CRY SO ID MUCH RATHER LET SONGS CRY. THE WORD CRY STANDING FOR ALL EMOTION THAT CAN BE USED AGAINST ME. LOL. IN MY OPINION THOSE WHO WEAR THEIR HEARTS ON THEIR SLEVES, HAVE DRAMA. SO I ALLOW MY MUSIC TO BEAR MY EMOTION. IT ALLOWS ME TO TAKE THAT MINUTE AND RE-EVALUATE WHATS IMPORTANT.
SO AS I WAS SAYN I TOOK THAT MINUTE AND I REALIZED THAT MY REAL FRIENDS ARE ONLY THE ONES WHO WERE ABLE TO BREAK DOWN MY WALLS, AND SEE ME FOR ME. THEY REALIZE THAT I NEVER NEEDED A SONG TO DESCRIBE ANYTHING TO THEM. WITH THEM IM PERFECTLY ABLE TO DISPLAY EMOTION AND NOT FEEL AT ALL VULERABLE. AND I LOVE THEM FOR THAT.
This was really, really good. I admire your admiration for music, and how you use it to 'live' your life.
ReplyDeleteson, what's with the CAPS LOCK? lol. & i actually like that song a lot. i haven't listend to it in forever, but when i do listen to it; i enjoy it. the last part about your friends breaking down your walls---ahahah--anywhoo yeah about that, i think that's smthg that Lo[PF] has managed to do effectively. & i mean i &hearts my Q.U.A.D. i really do, but i have yet to just let go around them, with the exception of Lo. uhmmm i don't like crying, like @ all because i feel it shows weakness. yet, i still cry. crying to me helps me release some of my anger. i cry because i'm angry & only when i'm angry. i guess crying just releases it by doses. music also helps, but i think crying can also help.
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