Through the Wire

This is so hard because when i let someone in i give them my all. This is so hard because im dealing with so much alongside it. This is so hard because it came so suddenly. This is so hard because it wasn't supposed to happen. This is so hard because it feels like karma. This is so hard because I have to deal with my hurt knowing that when a heart breaks it don't break even. This is so hard because im still in love. This is so hard because despite how much i want to i can't be upset. This is so hard because i completely understand why it needed to happen. This is so hard because i know i'll wait. This is so hard because your return is not guaranteed, i can only hope. This is so hard because right now i don't even feel like myself. This is so hard because everyone around me knows that my current behavior is out of character. This is so hard because most days i can't even get out of bed. This is so hard because the only time i leave my room is for work. This is so hard because when you love someone its hard to let go. This is so hard because now i dont know when its ok to call, and if you even wanna talk, if im talking too much, or too long. This is so hard because i feel like your ok now. This is so hard because... in order to get something, you have to go through something. Everything in me keeps telling me that this is worth it and im willing to go right down to the wire, and even through the fire.

a woman's best attribute and most fatal flaw