Long over due

So im listening to halo on this random saturday night. I got off work, came home, sat down for a minute and realized that i had a lot on my mind. Things have been so different for me over the past couple of months. I never knew I could know a happiness like this. Sometimes it scares me, the thought that another person is bringing me this happiness. At times i still think this is too good to be true, but every single day he lets me know that its real. He always knows what to say and what to do to make me smile.

I find myself thinking about him at random times of day. I smile every time I look at my phone and see his name. I never thought i'd be this girl, I actually told myself I wouldn't be this girl. I failed once, because I was afraid, I needed to keep my comfort zone. I realized that I cant push you anymore. I don't wanna not have you here. That double negative was real ugly but id rather it be that way. Neway... this means so much to me. I know its hard to tell because im afraid of looking soft, and I know we have no plans because because im afraid of making them, so tonight I wanna change some things.

I love you. Simply because your what im missing in my life. And as long as you want me by your side ill be there. And im ready to start that list whenever you are.